and I do not think it is because I am lonely or uncertain or confuse or just passing time
but something in me feels missing and wrong and now all the things that I do are for the wrong reasons and I don’t know what else to do anymore.
I don’t know how I got to this point and while I know that I have to pick myself up, somehow, I do not think that that alone is enough.
Something in me has been missing for a really long time and I’m not saying this because I’m fresh from a break up but everything feels like an out-of-body experience and I do not feel as though I know anything anymore.
All I know is that I don’t know how to tell anyone what is wrong with me. I don’t know the words to use or the expressions to portray for them to comprehend even an inch of this internal turmoil
“Do you ever wonder whether people would like you more or less if they could see inside you? …I always wonder about that. If people could see me the way I see myself—if they could live in my memories—would anyone, anyone, love me?”—John Green (via weareglitter)
”We dated and she’s an incredibly important person that I lived with for a long time, but it’s about that time in a relationship that I was going through; you’re in a relationship because you need help, but that’s not necessarily why you should be in a relationship. And that’s skinny. It doesn’t have weight. Skinny love doesn’t have a chance because it’s not nourished.” - Justin Vernon
“In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some that you wish you never have to think about again. But you do.”—C.S. Lewis (via katyjean)
when not only are you willing to risk being vulnerable, a part of you actually likes it. when you don’t have to make a wish on the last cigarette in the box, hell; you don’t even have to smoke so much anymore because the sound of that person’s voice has a better calming effect. also, when they refuse phone sex and you think it’s cute instead of disheartening.